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I am exactly the person I want to be

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Recently, I read the quote of the last line in an Amanda Palmer song:  I am exactly the person I want to be In my usual identity crisis, I can not even fathom that meaning...it was shocking to consider.  I pondered that there seemed to be a great divide between my self perception and what it would take for me to say that line confidently and unapologetically.  And know way of knowing how to bridge the gap when all you see is evidence of victimhood. I thought, how much time do we need to turn that around?  Where do I begin? The safest risk you will ever take is to invest in yourself, is what I thought.   What am I? A She-mana.  Prophetess, Creatrix, Inspiritress, magic dealer. So, naturally I made the cure, a list of affirmations than not-good-enough statements. Suggested affirmations to tap to every morning to bring me closer to my goals and the woman I want to be:  I am safe...
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My Path of the White Feather

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My Path of the White Feather  Back in 2007, I was deeply entrenched in a life full real estate, property management, being a professional dater, running my dogs on the greenbelts and enjoying the rich Austin music scene.  After 17 years, one thing was clear: I loved Austin and felt I lived in the best kept secret. I was deeply committed. However, the market was shifting and there was deep unrest within me and I felt I needed answers.  Out of the blue one day, I faintly remembered how one person told me about a plant from South America that showed you true things about yourself.  Being raised in a family of hippies, I had strong opinions and an aversion to anything drug related. Yet, there was something about this element, that no therapist or other person was trying to force their opinion onto you or make you fit into something that I felt I could trust.  I thought to myself that I needed this, as I felt no school learned therapist could ...
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Who are my teachers?

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Who are my teachers? Growing up as a feral child, without religion and Bohemian parents, I had little real aspirations or role models other than rockstars.  It is safe to say that it was hard for me to see the ‘middle way’.  Instead, I sought out a way to escape conformity by embracing the news of the Hare Krishnas the day I went to get my ticket to freedom in California - my driver’s license at 17.  Krishna informed me that the purpose of coming to earth was to step out of the wheel of karma and strive for enlightenment.  I had wondered why nobody had ever mentioned this before in my sphere of life, and thus went running into the philosophical arms of Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh, aka Osho before he passed from this plane.  I trusted and devoured all pertaining to Eastern philosophies and committed myself to pure heart and selfless services practices.  With dedication, I led a life of oneness consciousness in pursuit of exposing the ego and al...
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